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The Thoughts That Hold Us Captive

Have you ever felt hopeless in a situation? I have. So many times. Just recently, I had a tough decision to make—cheese or pepperoni. Joking, of course. The real issue I was dealing with went much deeper than even the deepest slice of deep dish pizza on the market. It dealt with my heart, and that can be a sticky place.

I found myself at odds with someone extremely close to me. This person and I both said and did things we shouldn’t have. We hurt each others feelings. We unknowingly created distance. We drifted far apart. One day, the lightbulb moment happened, and I realized that I just couldn’t handle the wedge in the friendship any longer.

It’s kind of like when a nail pierces a tire. Sure, we may be able to keep driving for a while..but eventually, it will blow out completely. The tire isn’t meant to have a hole in it. Neither are our relationships. This is where I felt stuck. I knew the problem, but the solution seemed even farther away than my friend. And that was pretty darn far.

A dollar is just a dollar, but it feels like a million when your rent is past due and you’re still $100 short. A marriage lasts forever, until it doesn’t and your left staring at a ring in your jewelry box, almost as if it’s sitting there just to mock you. An F on a paper is just an F, unless that grade stands between you and that cap and gown. The list goes on and on.

This is when we have the tendency to become our own enemies. We turn against ourselves. We doubt our worth.

  • “You’ll never amount to anything.” The fear in you heart shouts.
  • “Just give up.” The doubt rings through your mind.
  • “You’re too messed up. Too broken. Too far down in that pit. You’ll never be able to escape.” 

These are the thoughts that plague our souls. The thoughts we try to take captive, but find a reverse effect and notice that we’re the ones held as prisoners—not them.

But then, there’s God. When you feel like there’s nothing left, remember that God IS. He’s there when your friends disappear. He’s there when you lose that job. He’s there when you get bullied. He’s there when your marriage begins to crumble. He’s there when you feel worthless and numb. He’s there.

He longs to guide you. To protect you. To comfort you. To direct you. To love you. To be a FATHER you. To be a FRIEND to you. To be EVERYTHING you lack on earth. He’s there.

“Where can I go to get away from your Spirit? Where can I run from you? If I rise with the sun in the east, and settle in the west beyond the sea, even there you would guide me. With your right hand you would hold me.” Psalm 139:7, 9-10

—Juli Wilson


What has been keeping you captive? What do you want to let go of? Leave a comment below.

Julianne Wilson

Striving to make the world a little brighter.

  • Angeline Taylor

    I absolutely LOVE this. I feel like I get so easily distracted and disrouted in my thoughts and my relationship with God. I also had a friendship that went south because of actions and words from me and my friend and now we hardly ever speak. I know that I keep praying for her and I say hi to her when I see her. It’s just so hard sometimes cause my mind tells me otherwise. What do I do in this situation? I’ve already apologized to her, and it was sincere, but there’s still a distance.

    September 14, 2015 at 7:33 pm Reply
  • Anna

    Thank you for this reminder. I sit here crying. This is exactly where I am….broken.

    September 14, 2015 at 8:02 pm Reply

    Thank you Julie…I am going through this with a friend of 14/15years…I know that God doesn’t reject us,he loves us unconditionally…he’s my Abba Father, my best friend,my Savior, my rose of Sharon,my all in all…reminding me of who God is to me gives me greater confidence!! People may come & go, but God’s love is constant, it’s everlasting!!! Blessings!!

    September 14, 2015 at 8:53 pm Reply
  • Lana Sydenstricker

    This is EXACTLY what I needed to hear!! Going through some of the things you mentioned right now and it is not easy at all. But I know in this season of growing, God is with me!!! He is with me!!

    September 14, 2015 at 9:14 pm Reply
  • yaya

    Thank you Juli! I needed to read this today. My relationships with my husband is on a rough patch and today I felt like a failure and I felt like running away but a wise women told me today ” when you feel like running, run to JESUS!”

    September 14, 2015 at 10:00 pm Reply
  • Caitlyn Castro

    Depression, self harm, and past sexul abuse holds me captive. I need to be free to have the chains of depression, self harm, and sexul abuse lifted of me. I WANT TO BE FREE IN CHRIST OUR LORD

    September 14, 2015 at 10:17 pm Reply
  • Tony

    Immorality in my youth and in marriage. God help me out of the pit

    September 15, 2015 at 4:43 am Reply
  • Eleuter

    There’s just so many days I feel like I’m not worth all the trouble but never did The Lord abandon me along the way. Thanks for reminding me of this ! Gby

    September 25, 2015 at 8:11 am Reply

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